From my very early life, I was doubtful about the existence of the God. To me, God was a three-letter word i.e. G+O+D. However I read religious books and heard about various people regarding their impression of the God. As I understood, Jesus is the God to some people, Allah is the God to some other people and Hindus have divided impression of God - Rama/Krishna/Kali/Shiva/Durga/Laxmi and so many others. But to brahmins, the God can neither be sensed by our sensory organs nor perceived by our mind or intellect. It is a blissful state only that is called Sat-Chit-Ananda. Then how an ignorant person like me can see the God ?
As I understood, we can see the God only in his creatures. Humans are the best creatures of the God. But all humans can't be worshiped due to their evil nature(We can't tolerate that form of the God).So we can worship the God only by serving the demigods we see around us. I am a disciple of such a demigod Sri Sri Uma Devi, popularly known as "Joy Maa" who transcends the boundary of a demigod and is the true God to me.