Refusing to be left behind Been with my fiance for 18 years hoping within a the year or maybe the following we finally make it official in a few short weeks going to be turning 40 years old mother of 4 kids and 4 weeks ago we welcomed our first grandchild Jonathan Thomas in to our growing family and since his arrival has brought even more happiness in our lives and he is my little heart and soul. I am determined I refuse to be left behind I will be part of the advancing world yes I am still so very behind for the last year I have struggled read studied defined words looked up protocs attempted on a few occasions to develop something useful for others who are struggling ad I am. Technology is upgrading and I do not want to be the last one still scratching her head sitting in the same spot 5 years from now so completely frustrated because everyone is moving forward learning and understanding while I am still snailing by barely crawling past learning about http php net com python and more I want to understand I want to be that small piece of help who helps accomplish making safer access through the web where kids are not disappearing or seeing things they shouldn't yes I know things happen we cannot shield our kids from everything but we can make it a little healthier safer peace of mind for parents. Also there are so many others some even younger then me older then me and around my age who are not understanding as well who need help who financially cannot pay for maybe some classes or like me the credit score is not up to par to be able to even finance there way through programs. It's hard at least I can speak from experience on this I've made bad choices I am not not perfect my famous words are always survival and getting by do not get me wrong no pity party here I am grateful to have a home a good working fiance great kids food and more but my oldest son is 21 and my youngest daughter is 13 I just for once would like to show my children I can accomplish something great I can be apart of something that will hopefully make a difference I always worked hard for my kids but that's only because of the choices I made in life such as not getting a full education because I knew it all and more. So only I made it rough on my own self which made me worked twice as hard and an extreme amount of hours. So now I am going to work that much harder to learn all I can. My kids are what make my world spin no child ever ask to be here and that's why I worked 2 jobs and more and I could not stress enough in my home how important it is for them to get there education get now and finish it strive for the career they choose and hold on to it don't let it go accomplish it and live comfortable. So that's why I am still poking through the web everyday for the past year I refuse to be left behind this is now something I want to accomplish.